getting there..almost there... there.

Rejoice always. Pray without ceasing. Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will in Christ Jesus." I Thess. 5:16-18

so day by day its getting better. trusting. loving. listening. talking.

i feel fired up to live what i say. not just talk but do. but also trust in the waiting. the seemingly mundane. there is such joy in everything if we look for it. I dont want to be complacent.

Im coming back into "myself" or the me I want to be.

I want to be refined. I feel like I am being refined.

Dimonds used to be coal ... hmmm

i want to keep it real. live honestly. be awake in every moment.

life is so much sometimes. the only thing that makes it make sense is Gods love. and his promise that he is Good and wants good for us. i want to trust Him.

so thats that.

So I'm learning a lot.

Transitions are a source of deep insight into oneself and into life.
Transitions challenge our depth. They challenge our hearts... to see how we will respond

Life is a rollercoaster... and I think it might be better that way. I want to allow myself to feel. To feel intense joy.. and on the flip side must be that sadness that we dont like to admit.

I do want to say that I am happy. I am content. I am surrounded by loved ones.
Im thankful for what I have.

But I just experienced another transition. And this one was tough. I was so happy. Joyful. Really content. And I am now seeking to find that here. Not trying to recreate it because it will never be like it was for the last few months in Charleston but allowing my heart to adjust. To find that contentment wherever I am.

I do want to say I am getting there. And I couldnt do it without the love of my family. They are my soul. My essence. I hang out at home with them almost every night and I don't feel lame about it. I feel the most myself with them. We are different in ways but so the same in others. They are my home. They make being home a joy. (and i dont just say that bc dad was worried about me bc of my last blogs)

Bottom line... Im learning to be happy wherever I am. In the waiting period when the future is unclear hold on to what is right in front of you... ok now I sound like a hallmark card.

love.

i feel better...

productive

i love people. helping people. being with people. sharing life.

living a day at a time...

not looking to far ahead...

today I am home